I’m just out of it lately. I don’t feel like doing anything. I mean, NOTHING. Except for sleeping and well, that’s just not possible with three year old who wakes up early and doesn’t nap.
I have plenty I need to get done, lots of fun and interesting things I could write and share with you, but it’s like I’m on a lock down, just frozen still. It’s when things in your personal life get hairy that it affects your entire being. I have no patience with the Mr and Little M and despite always liking to “talk things out” I just want to be left alone.
It will be five months since we’ve been back in the US from the UK and the stress of living in someone else’s home, not having your space, nearing the end of our savings and not having a set routine really takes it toll. And for the first time since I was on maternity leave, I am not working. I’ve never been a stay at home, but now I’m a stay at home in my mom’s home. Not the same.
Some days I miss our flat in London. The silence, our space and no one around. Then I realize just how lonely were were so far away from family. That’s why we moved back and this transition period will soon be over. OH PLEASE LET IT BE OVER SOON!
So you can understand when you just can’t be bothered to take a picture, write a post or even try to sound cheerful when you just feel BLAH.
But, I have to be strong, get back up and shake it off. I can’t let that dark cloud loom over my head for too long. I’ve been there before and it’s not a pretty sight.
Oh, but wait! On the plus side, I started the Medifast diet last week and I’ve lost 5 lbs. Whoop whoop! I have my official one week weigh in tomorrow morning and I’ll tell you all about how it works. I have teamed up with them and I will be blogging my journey. I say, hooray for loose fitting jeans!
I’m getting back to normal, but maybe a bit of retail therapy would speed things along? Hmmmm?